I am adicted to favoriting...

I don't know... It seems like every time I open up that DeviantART page I find myself browsing and browsing until I hit that 10,000 limit. I don't know... I guess it's that engaging factor that comes from looking at all of the interesting art pieces that come along and having something catch your eye and then favoriting it for future reference. Who can help themselves? There's just a wide variety of people and art styles out there, like a mixing pot and even though you have to dig though these pieces to get them, somehow there's just the satisfaction of finding a creative photo or an abstract masterpiece or even something weird that makes it all worthwhile but I feel as if this is all I'm doing...

I have about 258 favorites right now, more than I have contributions (which is 1). There are some people have barely seen before, others a million times. There are some people who appreciate having that secular fave on that picture which should of gotten a lot; I don't know how I'm going to showcase my favorites nor manage which ones will stand the test of time but there are some stuff that you should see in there. Problem is, I want to contribute something worthwhile to the site, I want to actually mean something, I don't want to just favorite but it seems like I'm just doing that. Oddly favoriting... Showing my props to these creators of art. Maybe it's my love for art, maybe it's the fact that there's a message behind everything and to me, it's somewhat pleasing to favorite.

I have aspirations of drawing even though other people can't tell me to draw because I lack the "fine motor skills". I have visual ideas of fanart/original art that is just teeming to spill out and yet the thing holding me back is a lack of understanding on how to use the tools and how to visually interpret such ideas in a way that's presentable to the mass audience. I have read articles about it, I know about the fact that drawing is just shapes of all kinds and I know about the artistic tricks such as negative space and how literal perception gets in the way of your creative mind but I feel that I can't seem to do it alone by just reading about it. I feel like I need a classroom to teach me this stuff, a mentor which could help me develop my style and get me out into the artistic world.

Maybe that's what I need to beat the addiction, to do something different. I just want to be able to do something more than just browse the deviantART front page every time I visit, and man is it really fun to do. Still... It is distracting and lacks purpose.